Friday, October 29, 2010

beza dog n cat person...

tetibe ade org tnye..ko suke anjing ke kucing???haha...dengan penuh taksub dan happynye aku segera menjawab ngan muke x bersalah...i'm a dog person(bukan orang anjing tau..tapi suke kat anjing)..coz cat is annoying~~hate aku google la kat tenet mencari personaliti dog person...hehehe..

PERSONALITI DOG PERSON (yuppp!!!that me!!)

• extroverted, eager, unembarrassed, open
errr....yup2~~~(berdiri sambil mendabik dada~~)

• Interested in sports, adventuring, exploring, and outdoor pursuits
aku selalu men bola petang2~~sumpah!!(muke sungguh2)

• Like to be busy and go out a lot, like loud places like parties
yeaahhh!!!karok jomm~~~party2!!!situasi lagi terok kalo masok air..haha

• They tease and pick on each other in a friendly way, and like talking and boasting about their accomplishments
kan...aku memang baik...ensem pulak tue...betol tak??

• Have a large circle of friends and acquaintances and they make friends easily
kawan aku semua bulat~~~haha...

so..tu je la yg aku jumpe...ade bnyak agi...malas a nak tgk agi(muke bangga!)

disini disertakan personaliti bagi cat person pulak(terase cam aku wat surat alasan ketidakhadiran kuliah lak)

PERSONALITI CAT PERSON~~(kalo dah kucing aku x suke,dgn kau2 aku x suke!!hahaha..gurau ja..)

• introverted, self-conscious, shy, secretive, sensitive

• interested in quieter pursuits like reading, watching movies and videos, music, etc.

• Are homebodies or prefer quiet places

• Like their creature comforts and although they expect people to notice them, they tend not to boast, preferring to draw attention to themselves in less direct ways

• Have a small circle of close friends rather than a larger group

jadi nilai2 la sendiri yek~~~
ape2 pun...
kita semua diciptakan sesempurna ciptaan..
yang penting percaya pada diri..
dan terus maju ke hadapan..

nota kaki : busy month...ezam mood~~~pecah la kepala aku...z.z.z.z

Monday, October 25, 2010

a story to share..

got carried away while doing my fren assgment..hehe..(it been a while since i write story~~,sorry for the grammar mistake..haha)

The sun was shining brightly as if I did not do the crime. The sin that haunts me for the rest of my life. I not totally proud of it, but my awake mind knows that was the right thing to do. I remember the day when I entered this place, this prison. The life time sentence is worth it. Not even a single day I spend here not remembering you. Your face, your sweet face, your beautiful hair, everything make me crazy.

The first day I met you, you was entering the hospital. The wind blaze like it never was before. My heart was pounding as fast as the bullet train in London. My eyes was star-struck, it like memorizing the moment I saw you, Jessica. That name was written on the patient card. From that moment, I was sure that we have our destiny together. But, I try to keep it casual, because I know the reality of the situation. You are my patient, and I am your doctor.

Time past by in our first appointment. As casual as I try to be, it was very clumsy. It have been such a long time since I feel this way, considering my situation as a single bachelor with a profession as neuron-surgeon doctor, with my good looking and my country accent. We were meant to be together, that what my heart tries to say. When I ask you about your problem, you answered me calmly. That time I look closely into your eyes, and I saw its blue sea in colour. Eventually, your eyes see right through me. We stand there, face-to-face. We kiss for the first time and the feeling flow right through my body, then struck my heart in many different directions. The day went by, and everything else seems colourfull.

My day became more brightly, the bird singing happily and everything seem flowing smoothly. My mind feel calm when I with you. We been on a few more dates, I learn more about you. We shared many things in common. For example, you love kids. I still remember the time we go to your work place, the kindergarten. I see how you handle those kids with care, and how you become one of them. It was so funny and exciting, all the memory with you blend together with my everyday life. You bring smile back to this face. I never had been able to explain what I felt, the chemistry that happens between us. It was a paranormal, something that could not be explained. But I am sure at that particular time, you are the one. I was ready for commitment. I want to marry you.

It all shattered when your medical result comes out. My heart crushes into pieces as I read what written on the paper. I try to re-look at it again and again. Unfortunately, no matter how much time I look at it; the result is still the same. The entire neurological statistic and the brain scan show that the test was a positive result. Maybe if it something good I would be happy, but its not. That explain why your are in the hospital’s bed right now. Your brain cancer is at its critical condition. It’s been three month since you were sick. I got to do this. I have to end your pain, because I love you so much. The tears drop as I put the needle through your beautiful hand, that now so weak. I love so much. This is what supposes to happen. I let you go in peace. Suddenly, a nurse enters the room, realizing what I have done. The rest is just a blur for me. My live end just the same time went I end your live. The police, court, and then prison. I don’t even care. I do what I must do. To set you free from your miserable nightmare.

It’s has been 10 years since I been in this prison. Your memories still linger with me, night and days. Every single things I do remind me of your. Sometimes I even dream about you, you thank me for what I did. I do not care about what people say about me, the called me cold blooded murderer, killer, and even psycho, but only I know what I felt. The pain your suffer is too much, maybe no one else can understand. But I do, and I just cannot stand there, watching you in pain. My love is what causes me to do that act, and I know someday they will understand. I hope we can be together again, maybe someday, but not in this life. Someday we will truly happy, living with our love and companion. Until that day, our love will live in my heart, burning as the strongest fire that will never fade away.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Liku jalan itu..

Mungkin kau tak tahu apa yang telah aku jadi,
Apa yang telah aku berubah,
Tanpa kau sedari
Kerna kau terlalu sibuk.
Sibuk untuk tidak mengerti,
untuk terus mengabaikan.
Semua yang aku ingin nyatakan.
Kata pembelit bicara,
Mengapa kau tak bisa diam,
Jawapannya mudah.
Kerna aku mahu bicara padamu,
Ku dah lalui malam dimana aku.
Terus menabur kata pada angin lalu,
Kerna kau juga tidak sanggup,
Menghampar realiti pada garis fantasi,
Aku tahu apa yang kau tahu.
Aku sedar apa yang kau cuba sampaikan,
Tapi aku punya cara dan madah sendiri.
Dan jiwa manusia tak sama semua.
Jalan yang kau lalui itu,
Sudah menjadi takdir buat kau,
Tapi itu bukan takdir aku.
Jalan kau mungkin lebih berliku,
Membuatkan aku tidak memahami,
Tapi jangan kau abaikan,
Liku jalan yang aku lalui.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


Hari nie aku sendiri.kosong.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

warna taman hati

hati jarang bicara,
tapi aku cuba mendengar.

kenapa hati x kukuh dan utuh
saat akal menebarkan fakta dan fatwa.

realiti satu kenyataan,
tapi kenapa benang fantasi terus melintang

aku tahu apa yang aku tahu,
tapi kadang alpa dengan apa yg aku mahu

jalan ini satu cabaran
mungkin aku mati di tengah jalan.

siapa mengerti apa khilafku
tunjukkan jalan agar aku tidak sesat.

sendiri aku di tepi dimensi
kuharap tangan kasih dapat ku sambut

ku cuba warnai hati ini
namun warna apa yang harus aku pilih??